Tag Archives: loss

Wisp of thought

Little sister, you were so close you could have been my shadow. You were neither separate from me nor fully attached, but always near, your life growing next to mine, the two of us entwined. At 28, 23 begins to … Continue reading

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nothing

Social media is a strange landscape, and my desire to share and my ability to open myself ebbs and flows. In anger or other moments of strong feeling, I fling myself into the arena. In moments of dissociation, in the … Continue reading

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8 months

Some mornings I wake to a pit that storms beneath my stomach. Today is October 20th. Another 20th. Eight months. Two thirds of a year. Talia is gone. Talia is gone. My brain reminds me at mundane moments, as I … Continue reading

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I look like I have it together. I’m working. I wear clothes. I wash my hair and my body regularly. I often feel like I have it together. And between looking like I have it together and living in my … Continue reading

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Yom Kippur

I am grumpy about the connection (overt and implied) between righteousness and life. “May we each be sealed in the book of life for a sweet new year.” Yikes. My most important person was ripped out of that book last … Continue reading

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Happy birthday, Talia

Today love on creatures, the crawling and the furry kind both. Scoop spiders in cups and carry them outside to safety, hug a stuffed bear, delight in the antics of an uppity pet. Eat maple candy and ginger candy and … Continue reading

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six months

Six months ago I called my mother to check in before picking Abi and Tsion up from school. It was 3:08. I recall the numbers as they looked on my phone, just before I lifted it to my ear. The … Continue reading

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